When Two Tigers Meet

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Quoting from the text: “A Course in Miracles”

Agnisattva: “Simply do this: Be still, and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty your mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, nor one belief you ever learned before from anything. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God.” 
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The Snare of Absolute Non-duality.

Agnisattva: The search for God truly begins when we realized how blessed our life already is, when we realized how much of God’s love and blessings have already been given to us. Then we search for God not from a place of lacking, but to give our unconditional gratitude.

Questioner: But whom/what is searching for God and why when “you already are what you’re seeking”?

Agnisattva: Because that’s how this game of Life goes.  If you truly grasped the profundity of what you are trying to ask then in that instant the answer is revealed.  This is not something the mind can grasp.  And subtle word play will get you nowhere.  You search for God because, as God, that is what God enjoys to do.  A Divine game of hide-and-seek.  You search for God, because as God, you see yourself as not God.  You search for what you are for you are both what you are searching for, and not.

Beyond the dichotomy of both. Continue reading “The Snare of Absolute Non-duality.”

Dropping the need to Know

Questioner: Hey how’s it going?  Ok so I’ve been doing some inquiry and I’m just not convinced on the “I’m not the body and mind” and I feel like that’s holding me back from progressing.  Now individually I can say, “I’m” not the body, I know the body is of itself and runs itself, individually I can even say I know “I” am not my thoughts, since “I” don’t really control my thoughts.  I don’t control what thoughts appear and disappear.  But with all that, I’m just thinking why can’t “I” be the sum of all of that?

Agnisattva: Good question. There is a Buddhist perspective that what we are is simply a combination of the five aggregates and there is no permanent existing self.

Hence, Buddhist meditation and inquiry is geared at discovering this “no-self” and therefore have an understanding and experience of  “the void” or “emptiness.”  The hindu view (advaita vedanta) states that there is a permanent everlasting presences called the Self that is always there for it is aware of all the changes of the world itself being unchanged.  Neither perspective truly matters.   

It seems that you continue to allow your rational mind to guide your inquiry, and wish to have all this make sense to you.  Yet, how can this universe, in all its complexities, make sense to our feeble human minds?  To truly begin to crack this open let me recommend dropping the need to figure this all out.  Simply allow yourself to rest within your Silence. Continue reading “Dropping the need to Know”

The Saint Next Door

A dream I had:

 At the house next to mine, sitting on the stoop outside was Maharaj-ji (Neem Karoli Baba). I make my way up to him and with folded hands say: “thank you.” A Thank you that was filled with great reverence and love.
Maharaj-ji looks at me and in the most nonchalant of ways says to me: “dwell in silence, have no worries, and remember love.”

As I lower my head trying to maybe have a mere touch of the Master’s feet he adds with a shooing motion of his hands: ” now go away…”
 ~Agnisattva

To Polish the Mirror of the Heart

There is a beautiful and profound line in the opening Doha of the Sri Hanuman Chalisa which goes as follows:

 

Shree Guru charana saroja raja nija manu mukuru sudhari

Having polished the mirror of my heart with the dust of my Guru’s lotus feet

 

Just this line shows the profundity of the spiritual path and what it is we are truly doing on it, for it is all too easy to get caught up in lofty spiritualized fantasies of what it means to become “enlightened” when the meaning of the word itself is allusive to us.  

We hear stories of great mystical events, of celestial beings coming to people, or grand moments when someone has a great understanding, but these events mean nothing to us and it is not these event that are of interest to us.  

What is actually of interest to us, and what we are truly drawn to in someone who we feel has awakened to the “truth” (another word whose meaning alludes us) is the fragrance of love, is the fragrance of acceptance, is the overall sense of peace that they release onto the world.  It is this sense of love and openness that we seek for what good is knowledge of the “truth”, knowledge of the “self” with a cold closed of heart.     Continue reading “To Polish the Mirror of the Heart”

Meeting Hanuman. Meeting Love

“…you don’t want to be a sannyasin, you just want to be happy.”


Little did I know at the time, these words would have an affect on me that only months later I would begin to notice.

But, let’s not jump to end.  As with many stories it’s best to start at the beginning:

I didn’t know what to expect or why I was so excited about the idea of the event—being that I didn’t know who the speaker was or what the topic was about—the only thing I heard was the Krishna Das was suppose to be there (even though his name was not on the event flyer).  And being that many hours of my life have been spent listening to his music I thought it would be worth the attempt to show up,  although I was skeptical of that information.
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Forget about Awakening-Love yourself

Questioner: Good morning my friend. I pray all is well. All good here, though I must admit I’ve been finding myself, once again, on the verge of spiritual despair. I’m still longing for that Truth to be a direct experience- not something read in some book.

Agnisattva: You are not looking for an experience, you are simply looking for happiness. To be happy, you most begin to be happy with yourself. To not hate yourself or to try to run away from yourself , but to make peace with yourself. Spiritual experience are meaningless cause that’s not what’s being searched for. If an experience happened and you were still miserable, you wouldn’t even care for it. Continue reading “Forget about Awakening-Love yourself”

Life Without Meaning

Life has no meaning

When we hear this phrase, what passes through our minds? We usually do not like to hear these sorts of statements. These statements are usually uttered by people who have reached the lowest points in their lives, or by someone who just has an overall negative view of life. We equate such utterances with depression, because in truth the idea of a meaningless life frightens us.  Which is why we spend so much time and energy looking for meaning in our lives. Friends, work, parties, anything to give us a sense of meaning and purpose.  But as we all soon discover, there is a point where none of it seems to work anymore. Continue reading “Life Without Meaning”

Running from the Gallows

Questioner: Hello, what is your schedule tomorrow? Would it be possible to meet?

 

Agnisattva: Yes, we can meet, let’s schedule a time.

 

*After times have been agreed upon *

 

Questioner: Unfortunately something came up, but let’s stay in touch.

 

Agnisattva: No worries. Blessing to you

 

*Another Day*

 

Questioner: Namaste my friend. I pray all is well. Are you busy today?

 

Agnisattva: All should be pretty clear today. Continue reading “Running from the Gallows”

Our Father

The Christian Prayer, “The Lord’s Prayer,” begins with the words:

“Our Father” 

Within these first two words, not only is our relationship with the God given, but also our relationship with our fellow Human brothers and sisters clearly stated.  For what is a Father?  Or, on a broader level, what is a parent?  The word can be defined purely in its material sense as someone who has given birth to us in which we share a part of their genetic makeup.  But of course, as anyone who has been raised with those who were not their biological parents will tell you, a parent is much much more than simply a vehicle from which we have acquired half of our genetic makeup.   A parent represents guardianship.  A parent represents unconditional love.  A parent personifies the true meaning of what it means to be selfless, to be without ego.  For to place another before themselves, namely their children, and literally do whatever it is in their power to insure that their child not only has a good life, but an even better life than they themselves have had, is as close to a human representation of egoless as you can possibly imagine.    Continue reading “Our Father”